i'll let you know when i get there

like breaking a plate already cracked it came with little surprise in the space in between there is room for poetic sentiment and the pieces that are where the whole once was will find a new reason to be piece of time piece of heart piece of mind

1. i'm watching "her" for the third time and it still matter so much in so many ways.  it's so hard to watch.  and so comforting and true, too.  "the past is a story we tell ourselves" and the way it feels to be the only one in the world for awhile the reason and the purpose and how that changes inevitably. 2.  i quit my 3 day juice cleanse early. i felt awful yesterday.  today- day 3- i was holding out hope that i would feel that "radiant" glow that was supposed to kick in.  but i didn't.  i felt miserable and unfocused and fatigued.  and i wasn't sure why i was doing it anymore.  i have 3 more full bottles in the fridge, and i just stopped.  i just stopped and ate nachos with my friends. i was all set on finishing regardless of my miserable state, come hell or high water, because i'd spent so much money on the damn things.  it was a really hard reality to accept that something i'd spent so much on could maybe not be th...

you will get older every year find yourself repeating the same phrase patterns you picked up somewhere once and kept "seems like we were just here" and i'll say that again next year standing in that office with keys in my hand even though you're older and your life is full -nearly shining of full- there will still be nights when the whole world is asleep and you are not times when you need to work and you can't find the drive times when you need to stop working and you can't remember how some things you never get right with age today i finished watching the final episode of cheers.   began at the beginning and just watched on through napped through some only listened at times but i was there and when the ending came, it almost surprised me.   it took a sudden reflective turn old characters returned and left again and then the credits rolled a final time.   i had gotten so used to next episodes. i ...

1.  My life is full to the brim and I'm happy as a clam.  I could, however, use a nap.  Tired this week.  Excited for the year to come, though I wonder how I'll juggle a busier photog life with the usual school gig.  One more year. 2.  I picked up A BOOK this week.  Power to me.   The Elegance of the Hedgehog .  It's just right. 3.  A humble opinion whisper-screamed toward the world of photography:  ENOUGH WITH THE FLOWER CROWNS.  They've had their day.  Over em. 4.  The cultural shifts I've witnessed even since teaching here are pretty incredible.  I'm thinking especially in terms of sexual/gender stereotypes.  I wonder if the ubiquitous presence of social media in the lives of my students' generation has the effect of speeding up social conversation and, therefore, change.  It's hard to stay as isolated and ignorant to larger social dialogues if you're plugged in.  Makes me feel hopeful. ...

A few thoughts in a row: 1.  I listened to a This American Life podcast about France, and was pleasantly surprised to find out that I'm not the only one who doesn't get what's the big deal about Paris.  I don't get it. 2.  One year old crawler shoots with new clients-> exhausting. nerve-wracking, knee-bruising, non-favorite, hopefully satisfying. 3.  The whole idea of taking a bunch of pictures posed with the camera holding little signs with quippy or cutesy messages -> stop it. 4.  Robert Downs gave me permission to not get set in a particular style.  & he has that permission to grant.  i like his life... and i think i can have that too. 5.  only 5 more days with each class.  and 90 research papers to grade in between.  everlong. 6.  neighbor toni and i seem to have come to some sort of treaty agreement regarding cat turf. 7.  throw backs because i'm too lazy to upload the other ones from my phone right ...

this rant was all much longer in my head in the shower rant 1: there's this whole video called "Look Up" about how everyone is obsessed with their phones and as a result, family structures and the ability for people to make eye contact in real life are all rushing toward obsolete.  because of phones.  because people aren't really living  when they're on their phones all the time. hold up. these articles or videos or whatthefuckever almost ALWAYS make have a good chuckle with themselves for pointing out the irony of their medium.  "look! i'm chastising you for using social media ON social media!" please refrain from handing out clever badges quite yet.  you are not the first to note this irony  (thrilling word, isn't it?).  instead, you are like a smug pack of right wingers who hire Santa to bring the christ back in to christmas.  just stop already.  your dinosaur best friend is dead.  technology is here to stay.  stop telling...

1.  passed the pasta 2.  weeds:  season 7 3.