Things That People Buy When Preparing For The Worst:
toilet paper. all of it.
cleaning supplies. all but the organic shit.
pancake mix.
spaghetti fixings.
frozen pizza.
I wander from room to room and refresh my newsfeed every few minutes.
Several times a day I feel a huge swelling of sadness for the world, I feel it in my chest and my eyes. Little hellos of despair. But the weight of it doesn't stay. Yet.
Yesterday I encountered my upstairs neighbors at the grocery store where they loudly told me that this was all a conspiracy. The "real" truth was that this was a way for the governments of the world to control their people.
The horror I felt then and the rage that followed when they sent me youtube links might be the worst pangs of despair yet.
I am so disappointed in humanity.
I don't know what I need in all this.
Very little, I think I'll learn soon enough.
We are all petulant children in the backseat asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?"
unready for the ride that we are on
and to what end.
