feelings

a few very short thoughts:

strange that we usually do not have a problem teaching novels that portray rape, but if consensual sex is depicted, the novels are more likely to be contested by parents.

redid the place. basically felt like moving in to the same address. i feel like i have a home for the first time in a few years.

regarding the evolutionary function of feelings: feelings distract us from the sheer banality of existence. were we to look existence in the face consistently for any given amount of time and realize what a wretched and utterly pointless mess it is, we would probably all off ourselves. a small terror to really consider the fact that all the things that we think are so special or unique to us are just cookie cutter, text book medleys of psychosis and traits that have been and will be repeated... all going through the same damn phases... having the same revelations... making the same mistakes... all predictably... predetermined by no one, but set on a course still. fatal.

humans are silly creatures who only continue to exist because we are distracted from suicide by emotions.

how does that make you feel?