i'll let you know when i get there

1.  passed the pasta 2.  weeds:  season 7 3.

well, swell.  yesterday I shot my second (first-time-bigger-scale) wedding. 10 hours, 4,008 pictures, and 3 deodorant applications later- i'd say i did alright. :-/ = -unrealistic expectations.  i really should have had a second shooter.  it's hard to do anything well when you are expected to do everything. -"photo booth" shots are quickly becoming my least favorite request.  hire a friggin photo booth if you want someone to stand in one place and take pictures of the exact same thing for a few hours.  plus- in a wedding type context where there's so much going on, getting a pic of every single couple in that setting is stressful and impossible.  even if it's only 30 couples.  it's like herding cats and it takes my time and attention away from the couple.  never again without some serious conversation about expectations first. -uncomfortable and intoxicated older men.  they get grabby.  they get vocal.  they seem to feel e...

quick and unthoughtthrough state of the union. business is booming and i love it.  there are times during event shooting where i could just set down my camera for a few minutes and weep for joy.  i've had experiences like this before, but they are rare and have never been this definitive.  to feel like i am doing exactly what i want to be.  what i'm good at.  doing something that makes me feel most me.  it's powerful. after all of the changes of the last decade, i don't claim to know myself if definite terms anymore.  but i KNOW photography.  i know it to my core. so a helluva resounding YAY and weepy joy tears to all that.  enough to get me through these annoyances: 1.  because i have yet to make the leap to full time photog, i'm essentially working 2 full time jobs. frustrating and exhausting.  i'm handling it well, but i can't help but day dream about how much more i could do with all those extra hours and surges of energy...

the keys to the kingdom looks like a 30 day trial of amazon prime.  the sky opened up and the glory shone down in the form of scandal (season 3) and mad men (season 6).  technology, i praise your name.  goodbye world of people productive and brunching before noon.  hello, weeks of emotive entertainment.  alleluia.

It's hard to say exactly where the pain is felt- a phantom limb of sorts. It feels like a physical ache, but only after. To place the pain would be fix it on memory or hope something not inside or outside mixed up in past and futures and felt presently in no real way that can be identified so as to mend.

1.  i took a very long walk today.   i thought it was strange that the birds seemed to separate themselves by color.   2.  new neighbors  3.   4.