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A specific kind of green.  Beans and garlic and a curious deer. Trying to grow a kiwi for 30 years. A swing on every tree branch.  An empty water bowl.  1-2-3-4 who ya gonna root for? The boys in the bus are State Champs. Honk honk a yellow blur past. I am only one person. I am only one person. Way up high  Heat lightning sky on a still night  Later, rain Out of the window A crack open for the cats  Dodging familiar faces in common places. I just lack the capacity for being this needed. Candid photos. Humility. She'll sell you vibrations in a patio chair. Wind storm collapsed the barn. Blew the roof right into the air. Uh-oh Arms reaching What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing? Let's walk one more block To honor the grief of what will never be. I am only one person.  Slow drives past the places we've lived and the places we've worked and the places that once contained our hours and years.  A turtle on the trail. slow down slow dow...

Right at the crescendo The part with the bells I was thinking of Act 3 Emily  Trying to really realize it Forty years later and the place smells exactly the same. I wondered how often I'd stared up at that same stained glass. Taken refuge there during recess. Been embarrassed by my growling stomach during morning mass. Flipped in the hymn to those same tired songs, lead by the same proud, warbling voices. The unchanging feels more like something arrested than something eternal, noble or true All eyes on the middle aisle during communion parade. Everyone watching each other sideways. Is there a true prayer lifted in that entire hour? It's hard for me to imagine what even goes on in these minds.  Any more "You must increase, I must decrease" would have had me an agitated dust speck, forever lifted to a light beam and then forced to rest again on those same worn pews. A dark ancient cave. Shadows on the wall.  But I've seen too much. Grown too tall.  The ...