i'll let you know when i get there

the keys to the kingdom looks like a 30 day trial of amazon prime.  the sky opened up and the glory shone down in the form of scandal (season 3) and mad men (season 6).  technology, i praise your name.  goodbye world of people productive and brunching before noon.  hello, weeks of emotive entertainment.  alleluia.

It's hard to say exactly where the pain is felt- a phantom limb of sorts. It feels like a physical ache, but only after. To place the pain would be fix it on memory or hope something not inside or outside mixed up in past and futures and felt presently in no real way that can be identified so as to mend.

1.  i took a very long walk today.   i thought it was strange that the birds seemed to separate themselves by color.   2.  new neighbors  3.   4.

i do not believe that the act of giving is always to be praised. to give up. to give in. to give when you should not. to bend in ways that do not allow for straightening out again.  these days when every punctuation mark takes on some 20 layers of meaning.  the  presence or the absence of a particular inflection can be devastating. (She is speaking in codes again, she is speaking in that way.)  And this is no game of madlibs with some other voice filling in the cues for reconciliation or destruction, this is a game of One.  This is a game of one, and a page quietly turning. this is important. feel it all.