happened upon

i happened upon a song she was singing

i had in depth knowledge of her metaphor                                              (of course she was singing,

and how her heart strings were not the expression of some universal,            they're always singing

but of one pull in particular                                                           or doing incredibly alluring things

  and i know the puller                                                                                         that draw you in the codes that lock up the metaphor                                                                                     and keep you 

 i know the one                                                                            on the side of an everyone audience

the arrows point to                                                                                                  simultaneously.                                                                                                                   in unforgiving ways                                                                     nose up against the fourth wall glass

                                                                                                      but that's as close as you will get.

once you know the code,
the chords are easy to learn.

i knew the codes
but                                                                                              you had her glowing like a highlight reel
the glow was gone and it                                              (but the rest of us are real time real time real time)
left a lacking but not a longing                                                 and i squinted my eyes at a thing so bright
and she didn't glow and  
the room went hollow for me.                                                      sometimes i find myself squinting, still.

looking for a cue.