find your grail

i think i had a religious experience while watching the Monty Python's Spamalot.

they make fun of everything in the best way (in smart and silly ways).  they were making fun of religious soul empowering music during one scene and they kept repeating the line "FIND YOUR GRAIL" in the kind of affecting way that church soul music can sometimes have. and they were mocking the religious part but something about the grail and the searching and the absolute need for that search and pull moved me.

begin ramble:  then the rest of the play showed how various knights found their grail in various forms of identity- homosexuality, musical theater, a woman, patriotism... name it... and all i could think of was kierkegaard and the idea of finding your meaning somewhere and then leaping and the beauty of true devotion and at the time i thought it was all nuts because i was still so angry but there might be something there because i remember wondering as a freshman in college when i would pass groups of protesters i remember wondering what my cause would be... what my passion would focus on... and for awhile it was the lordjesuschrist but that doesn't make sense at all anymore but i know that i still feel passionate and alive and full of intensity like when i'm taking pictures or writing or leaping like a cat for a frisbee or holding a baby or when the feelings well up and spill out into songs or dancing sometimes i still feel it and there are little grails everywhere and that is enough to sing about.

end ramble.