fear and disappointment
Things That People Buy When Preparing For The Worst: toilet paper. all of it. cleaning supplies. all but the organic shit. pancake mix. spaghetti fixings. frozen pizza. I wander from room to room and refresh my newsfeed every few minutes. Several times a day I feel a huge swelling of sadness for the world, I feel it in my chest and my eyes. Little hellos of despair. But the weight of it doesn't stay. Yet. Yesterday I encountered my upstairs neighbors at the grocery store where they loudly told me that this was all a conspiracy. The "real" truth was that this was a way for the governments of the world to control their people. The horror I felt then and the rage that followed when they sent me youtube links might be the worst pangs of despair yet. I am so disappointed in humanity. I don't know what I need in all this. Very little, I think I'll learn soon enough. We are all petulant children in the backseat asking "are we there...